Yes, and some extra peace. I felt that now I know more about myself that before.

When I discover that I’m asex, I felt like many puzzle pieces clicked at place. When I accepted that I’m aromantic, I got some peace as I understood that pressure that hetero-amatonormaty had on me. And now, that cracked my egg and understand now that I’m enby, I feel liberated. But also I feel some afraid, but also hope, about the future.

The only thing that I lament, it’s not knowing my self before, and the lost time.

I accept it, but “happy” is the wrong word. I wouldn’t say I wish I was straight and cis per se, there’s nothing wrong with just being the way I was born. But being those things would make my life immensely easier so it would be nice. I don’t inherently enjoy the queer experience in and of itself. I’m just being who I am.

Am I happy? I certainly feel more complete since I figured things out. I don’t know though, it’s almost like asking if I’m happy I’m right handed or have curly hair. Being pan is just part of me, and it’s a part I embrace. I think when people talk about pride, what resonates to me is more “the complete absence of shame” rather than the feeling I get for accomplishing something. Happiness feels similar to me.

Overall I’m happy. finding out I was aroace helped explain so much of my life up to that point, and it’s easier to give myself grace when I don’t bother seeking out relationships like everyone else in my life does

Yes… it’s good to have a better understanding of oneself. It’s been a bit of a roller coaster though…

First exploring and understanding the bi side of my sexuality… and more recently there’s been exploration of a long buried fem side.

Came out at work as they/them a few weeks back… was at a Pride march yesterday.

Now ready to hide under a blanket and cuddle a stuffie…